I always envisioned myself as a wife but never as a mom.
And then I met Reagan.
He would be an awesome dad, I always knew.
And so I realized I couldn't be so selfish and deny him his wants.
Reagan and I had a great courtship. We got to be selfish in where lived and what we did (even without concern for one another).
One day, we decided that after all of our selfish adventures, maybe we should start thinking about the future.
But I never wanted to be a mom, only a wife.
We moved to a safe community with a stable work environment and a positive outlook.
Reagan had his dream job and I made do and actually fell in love with making do.
And then I got pregnant.
And still made do.
Melita is nice and witty and terrible and a thorn in my independent side.
And I still make do.
Sacrifices are made.
But I, the reluctant mom, am still the one raising my daughter while living a life and having a career and husband.
I make the beds, do the laundry, make the dinner, call the clients, schedule hearings, make the coffee (times 2), answer the phones, keep 4 adults and myself and a child on schedule, pay the bills, buy the groceries, remember the birthdays, remember to be gracious, remember to be the mom and the wife and the employee.
And never ever asking anyone else to step in.
I never wanted to be a mom.
I can't imagine a life without her.
