Mr Froggy Went A Courtin'

Melita is still in her harness. I was right and she had outgrown the current settings, so the doctor re-set them and we have a follow-up on July 3. Then 2 weeks after that she will have an ultrasound of her hip done and we will then find out the next course of action. Although, she seems to be a little more comfortable, I think she is sick of being stuck in one position and this is the source of her fussiness at the end of the day. The doctor did mention to us yesterday that some people believe that the position the harness forces the legs into causes colic! Although, Melita is the most fussy between 1am - 4am, she is not unconsolable. The minute you pick her up she stops fussing. Definitely not colic.

Last night I was at my breaking point with the early AM crying after I had tried for the ten millionth time to put her in her crib after she had fallen asleep in my arms, so I just let her cry. She was fed and dry and she wasn't bleeding anywhere, she just wanted to be held. Sure, I checked on her every 5 minutes or so. But I didn't pick her up. Today I feel terrible about it, but I need some sleep at night. It's fine to nap with her during the day, but in the evening I would like to chill with Reagan rather than head straight to bed when he gets home from work, so that I will be ready for her 3 hour crying fit. I worry about irreversible damage I may have caused by leaving a newborn to cry, but after a call to my mother this morning I feel OK about it. It was hard for me to do and I didn't sleep a wink through it, but it needed to be done. After about 30 minutes Melita did figure out how to comfort herself and she ended up sleeping for about 3 hours straight. Uninterrupted sleep she and I both needed. I'll try again tonight and hope that she goes to sleep a little easier.